Choosing Recovery, Year 1, months 4-7
Year 1, months 4-7 When I entered the partial hospitalization program, I convinced myself that I could have it all. I wanted to recover from my eating disorder, train for my junior year college cross country season, work at the summer camp I grew up going to, and prepare to study abroad that upcoming spring semester. So at the start, I knew I was not going to stay enrolled in the program longer than 6 weeks. My job was going to start at the end of June. I couldn’t miss that. What if people thought that there was actually something wrong with me? Because of this accelerated timeline, I made sure to follow ALL the rules. I learned how to eat from my meal plan- 3 meals, 3 snacks, and a dessert every day- which included more carbs and fats per meal than I had had in years. This was relatively easy to follow while I was in the program from 8am-2pm, but when I got home it became extremely difficult. There was no one at home holding me accountable. This wasn’t necessarily the fault of my pare...
